I have been practicing meditation, reading Dharma books and listening to teachings for about a year. However, I am currently experiencing confusion and discouragement in my practice, I suddenly lost interest in doing all of these and felt that everything that I’ve learned and practiced has disappeared. I am still trying to practice every day but in the meantime feel very confused and discourage about it. So as I understand your teaching, does it mean that I just have to continue putting effort to practice without expecting any progress? How do I motivate myself to practice? I hope you can give me some directions.
Response by Phillip Moffitt
I often hear meditation students report that they have suddenly become disinterested in practicing or have completely lost the motivation to practice. Naturally, this is discouraging to the student, but it is also an opportunity for growth. We can lose interest in practice for a number of reasons. Oftentimes it’s because we don’t feel sufficiently or immediately rewarded. That is, we want some change to happen “right now” but it doesn’t. A second reason is that we have hit a psychological or emotional resistance, because in order to continue with practice we will have to feel and investigate some aspect of ourselves that feels highly charged. A third reason for discouragement is that practice is often hard and progress is sometimes slow. Our minds want more entertainment, more excitement.
